A New Day

There are things you dream about writing, things you hope you’ll someday get to tell the world, things that happen in your life that are so amazing and exciting and dream-fulfilling that you can’t wait to put them into words.

And then they actually happen, and you don’t know where to start.

So I’ll just say it plain and simple~

I’m going to be a grandmother.

Could there be a better gift than this hope for the future, this new life in a long line of lives, this fulfillment of a dream?

Though this part isn’t my story to tell, it has been a difficult road for my son and daughter in law, a road stubbornly filled with stumbling blocks and disappointments.  But now the path has cleared and come November we will welcome this long awaited addition to our family.

When you embark on the task of childbearing and childrearing, you take a huge leap of faith in yourself and the universe.  You hope the world will be a good place for your child to grow and live, you hope you remain alive and strong long enough to raise that child until adulthood, you hope  most fervently that your child is whole and healthy.  You say you don’t care whether it’s a boy or a girl (and I don’t!), whether she loves shooting hoops or dancing ballet.  It doesn’t matter if he becomes a doctor, a chef, a carpenter, or a poet, or whether her hair is long and silky black like her mothers or brown and slightly wavy like her fathers.

You just want to share the world with them, be able to watch them learn all the things you know and take for granted – how birds sound in the trees, the feel of the ocean lapping against your ankles when you walk the beach, the freedom in dancing around the room to music.  You want to open the world up and present it to them on a silver platter, invite them to reach out a small, chubby hand and take everything they want.

I’m beginning to realize that all those feelings are actually compounded when you contemplate becoming a grandparent.  Perhaps its because we know so much more than we did in the days we raised our own children.  We know how life can throw you a curve ball one day and hand you roses on the next. We’ve seen how dangerous the world can be, but also how magnificent.  Most of all, we know how quickly time passes, and how you must savor every precious moment, even when you’re sick to death of changing diapers, playing Candyland, or going to soccer games and school plays.

In the twinkle of an eye, it’s gone, and they’ve grown up and away. And you are older than you thought you’d ever be.

But right now I’m feeling young and renewed.  The last few weeks life has been handing me roses, and I’m enjoying that immensely. I’m also hoping this bouquet retains its sweet fragrance for a long, long time.

So I offer this song in honor of Brian and Nantana, and their baby.

A new day indeed.

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24 thoughts on “A New Day

  1. Yippee! And I really mean to say it YIPPEE!!!!!!!

    Oh, Becca, I’m so very happy for you! What a wonderful post — I hope you print this one out and save it for the baby’s book, because one day (s)he will be so excited to see what his Gram wrote and shared with her friends when she heard the news!

  2. I couldn’t be happier for you and your family, Becca. You are in for the ride of your life. There is nothing in the world like looking into the eyes of your child’s child. Breath it in.
    Bella

  3. oh my gosh.. Becca – I am tearing up here !
    what a gift for your son & his wife ~ for your family.
    YOU are going to be the most loving, caring, and giving Grandmother.
    I am thrilled for you & so, so happy to hear this news.
    Keeping them both in my prayers for a safe journey until the birthing time.xo

  4. What a fun post to read, easy to see how excited you are about the blessed event. I especially like your comments about how much better it is as a Gram because you know all the right things to do now compared to when we were all young and just pretending that we knew what we were doing. Good luck, very happy for you and for Brian and Nantana.

  5. Oh Becca, how wonderful! You must be just soaring with wonder and happiness. I’m so, so happy for you and Jim, for Ruth and especially for Brian and Nantana. Blessing and love to you all.

    • Oh, thanks Bonnie! Another name to add to the family tree 🙂 Now we’re mixing some Chinese in with all the German, Scottish, and Irish. (Not to mention the Armenian from my dad’s side!)

  6. There is a special bond between grandparents and their grandchildren, isn’t there? How lucky for your son’s boy or girl to have you as their nana, you are still young and will offer many beautiful wisdoms, patience and much love. Congratulations, Becca! 🙂

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