The Excitement Mounts

The countdown has begun -four more weeks tied to the desk, four more weeks of shuffling papers, four more weeks….

I have to say, I’m getting more excited by the minute.  The next four weeks won’t be a picnic – it’s going to be a daunting task trying to convey the complexities of this business in just over a month to someone fresh off the street.  Not to mention all the pure housekeeping stuff that awaits me as I attempt to extricate myself from my little corner cubicle.

But there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, and it’s even bigger than I first imagined.

I don’t think I realized just how much I was ready to leave my job until I actually did it.  Because I’m so resistant to change, I always wait far too long before taking that first crucial step.  By the time I actually work up the courage to make a move, I’m nearly at the breaking point.  My inertia also comes from an ever present hope that if I wait long enough, things will get better.   Sometimes that happens – but more often than not, it doesn’t.

You’d think I’d learn, after 55 years on the planet.  But I sometimes wonder how much of our basic nature we can really change.   “I yam what I yam,” as Popeye used to say, on one of my favorite childhood cartoons.

And I “yam” excited – even though I’m not completely sure what comes next.  Normally I’d be scared silly by that kind of uncertainty.  But somehow it’s more exhilirating than frightening.  Perhaps because I’ve just watched some friends set off on a huge adventure on the other side of the world, and watched my son and daughter in law pull up stakes to start a new life in another state.  They all set me thinking about the possibilities life has to offer if you’re brave enough to take a teeny chance here and there.

So as well as being excited, I’m trying to be brave.

And make it through the next four weeks.

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10 thoughts on “The Excitement Mounts

  1. Oh, Becca, I simply love hearing the energy and excitement in your voice. It tells me that you know for certain you are doing exactly the right thing — and can’t wait to really get on with it!

    I’m so very happy for you.

  2. Wahoo! Becca you won’t know how you ever managed time for a job. Seriously, the whole world just busts wide open. You’re gonna love it. If you can ever find an old copy (it’s out of print) of a book called Cashing in on the American Dream by Paul Terhorst, you can get some great ideas on the subject. And of course, I have just a few opinions on the topic… this December it will be 15 years of being gainfully non-employed.

    • Colleen, I agree… I couldn’t imagine being on someone else’s clock again. (Except my kids. They’re pretty much running my show right now.) I love freelancing and was surprised by my entrepreneurial spirit. It’s been 7 years since I quit my career in TV. Seven years! It feels like yesterday. I didn’t land perfectly on my feet, but I am reclaiming my power… instead of putting it in someone else’s hands.

      Becca, if you can endure four weeks, I think you’ll be ready for whatever comes next!

  3. Oh, I’m so excited for you, Becca. You’re going to love it. There’s nothing in the entire world like having the power to plan you own day, your own life. Of course, we may already have the power, but it can take a while for us to own it.

    I completely identify with being resistant to change. There have been times in my life when I’ve waited far too long to make important changes. There is a cost that comes with that.

    I’m so glad you’re taking the plunge.

    • I’ve realized that most of my problem with change comes because I rarely initiate it – it’s always thrust on me without warning, so it becomes fearful. This time it’s different – it’s all mine, and I’m loving it!

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