I was just about to go to bed – but – there are some hefty fireworks going on somewhere around here, and since it’s the kind of night that’s just too deliciously cool to sleep with the windows closed, I reckon I’ll postpone bedtime a little bit longer.

I haven’t been sleeping well since I got home from Florida.  Usually I’m a pretty good sleeper (hot flashes not withstanding), and rarely have any problems going to sleep at night.  But Tuesday night I was awake until 3 am, restless and fitfull, dozing off occasionally only to startle awake again.  I got up, then went back down, then got up again.  Finally dozed off for good after some toast with honey and chocolate Ovaltine, my sure fire remedy for insomnia.

By bedtime last night I was a walking zombie, so my eyes were closed as soon as my head hit the pillow.  BUT – at 3 am I was wide awake, and couldn’t go back to sleep.  It was chilly in the room – ceiling fan was on and the window was cracked – and I was awake and shivering until I broke down and fetched the furry afghan from the reading room.

Not sure what’s causing the sleep disturbance ~ certainly life is a whole lot quieter than it was a year ago, when I was dealing with a freight train of loss.  Once again, I marvel at the resilience of the human spirit.   To quote a favorite Elton John tune, I”m still standing ~ maybe not better than I’ve ever been, but at least still here. 

Something to celebrate this holiday weekend. 

As would be a good night’s sleep.

How about you? Anything worthy of fireworks going on in your world this week?


5 thoughts on “Fireworks

  1. I’ve had a bumpy few nights, too. Usually it’s my cough; this time, just antsy. I lay in bed making up novels I’ll never write, because while I’m great at developing character and description, I can’t create a plot to save my soul! And last night was cool — I was sleeping in the guest bed, so my cousins could have the big one; maybe that was it. Dreams all the time. Hopefully I’ll zonk out for nine days on vacation.

    You’re coming up on anniversary time, aren’t you? You mentioned a year… don’t sell that short in terms of restlessness and all. It’s just kind of “there” — remembering what was, all the changes in the year. That saps a lot of mental energy, but you can’t kick it out. Could be…

    Meanwhile, toast with honey and ovaltine sounds mighty good to me!

    Have a wonderful Fourth of July, and I hope you’ll be able to rest soon.

    • Hmmm, you could be right about the anniversary thing. All that has been on my mind of late.

      And I bet you are good at making up characters! I love a good character driver story myself – plot is sometimes kind of secondary to me if the characters are compelling.

  2. I hope your sleeplessness flees, and the holiday weekend is just great.

    I’ve always remembered a saying that seems so true, even though I don’t know where it came from: time doesn’t heal anything, but it allows healing to take place.
    Thinking about it, the association between healing and accepting change seems clear. When I think about the single most traumatic change in my life – in terms of its suddenness and irrevocable nature – there was no way to move on until I accepted the change that had come into my life.

    In any event, here we are – still standing. And do you know – I’ve never heard that Elton John song! It’s from 1983, so it makes sense to me that I missed it then. Glad you brought it to my attention now!

    • I think that concept is very true – time allows the healing to happen, and time usually softens the change so we can accept it.

      I didn’t realize that song was so old! Geez.

  3. Insomnia is one topic I have experience with. I love the toast with honey and chocolate Ovaltine tip. I usually just go on the computer for a while. Your way sounds much more soothing.

    I hope you find the rest you need.

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